Not working for so many months impacted my confidence, my finances, but mostly shined a big light on the people who were there for me. I’d felt the loneliest I’ve ever felt was in the GM job, the energy surrounding that role really brought me to a dark and different person than I’d been and in the midst of it, there were a handful of people who said things I’d listened to. 

You don’t seem like yourself.

Your not in a good place

Lori, you are a good person that is why you don’t  fit in. 

You go after the money in these jobs, but then are surrounded with bad people

Are you ok, you seem really off.

Since I’m a fixer, I felt like I could change it and given my position, I was suppose to fix it. Just be tough and power through. As I withdrew from social activities over the years, this organically seems to happen as my daughters hit high school and their scheduled dictated the whole families, and I wanted to see them, plus we’d move or had friends move away, seeing other adult friends outside of work just fell away.  The second time I felt my chest tighten so much that I felt like I was having a heart attack, I knew I had to get out of GM.